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hey guys. super cui photo cos i'm crying :/

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okayokay after 1/2 hour ler i finally stopped the tears so i can do a proper blog post.

let's start with yesterday aye? (:

yesterday was sooooooooo crazy. it's like up down up down you know!

first thing i went to clementi to meet clarieeeee~ went for the job interview thingy and it was kinda fast.

bought koi! LOL. but wasnt really happy cos it's like day 1 after i broke up :/

clarie ate and chat at some wet market. saw her ah po selling fish. sometimes i wish my family did something like this haha. can experience so much more.

went to her house and saw her painting she did for her ah po. i really miss art! :(

someone buy me paint and canvass cos i wanna paint or draw so badly~~

went to her room and play with ipad. she stalked my fb infront of me. LOL

thick skin or thick skin? bothhh.

told her what happened between me and him but thank god my mood was super stable.

being with her can be so hyper at least.!

watched steven lim LOL. random videos all the way till 2 plus, clarie and i went to meet godrey at np.

took bus to petir there buy breezer for me :D

went there and i saw your house, saw the block we always met. i miss those times...

made me remember of you and it rained super heavily. i wasnt complaining much cos the weather suited my mood. raining plus missing you = perfect match.

there was a "tsunami" while crossing the road LOL! it freaking reached to about my face and the road water splashed onto us. STUPID BUS 190!!

hair and body was all wet like mad but kinda fun. at least i could laugh for awhile ._.

went buy breezer and took shelter at coffeeshop. slack there then clarie needed go shooting and i bang seh her LOL.

i pian her gan qing twice. i hope the water bottle i gave her can bu chang la horh :P

so clarie left then talk talk to godrey till 5 plus. walked to bangkit then go lot 1.

met yong shen gor at nearby block and i remembered you again.

the memories at lot 1. plus i didnt receive your msg at all for the whole day.

i thought we would never talk at all again ...

ys friends went there then i listened to them talk for like few hours.

drank abit. i also bo mood talk.

phone battery was super low and i offed it.

when i was about to leave i on my phone and i saw he text me! i was super happy yet scared.

text him all the way home and all. cried again cos we had h2h talk. really a long day for me.

TODAYYYYY.

i woke up at 11 am -.- so unlike me right.

woke up and saw a msg from him. super surprised. asking me to go to his house.

so i chionged there like mad.

i cried like a mad baby and i even made him cry ... :/

i'm so god damn confused right now and i think i'm sick due to the rain, not eating well and not enough rest.

reached home at 3 plus and watched one episode of sunny girl.

i like really no mood to watch videos or anything now i dono why :(

text him and i cried for like an hour plus cos i am so ocnfused about our relationship.

he's trying his best to get his feelings back and we are best friends.

sometimes i dont even know why i'm crying but maybe cos i'm just so tired of making him try.

i'm cooled down now and he's busy outside so yea. alone alone~

no plans for tmr or anything and i wanna watch breaking dawn! anyone wanna watch with moi? :D

thinking of asking him. ( omg my mind was " thinking of asking baby" ) this shows i still think we havent broke up...

sigh. super fml now right. thanks to those who are by my side and even those facebook friends.

today is the first day of december and gosh it's like a good and bad day.

maybe it's good you know? cos at least he wanted to see how i was. and that we still can talk and fool around like how we used to (:

" i'm still trying because i know you still have feelings for me"

" cos i wanted to know how are you"

" we are best friends"

" i will try! but no promises :/"

hey best friend, i still love you. i'm sorry for crying so badly and making you feel so bad.

dont worry i've suffered worst during this relationship. i'm gonna treat this as another super fucking huge obstacle. i hope both of us will be better soon. I love you <3