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i'm super emo today because i'm at home with nothing to do.
and i think alot especially thinking about the past.
i didnt text you in the morning, i guess you thought i was sleeping. but no i woke up at 8.30 like the usual. i just didnt text you.

while typing this, i'm going to cry anytime. i just cant control all these emotions. it's really making me so depressed inside.
so many people have told me to give up, but why am i the only one still holding on?
you say you wanna break cos you feel uncomfortable. but now when we break, things between us are further apart. dont you get it why i dont wanna break with you yet?
you promised, i hope you still remember.

i keep thinking about the past, how much you loved me and all.
why is it that someone can love you so much and all of a sudden they say they have no more feelings for you?
remember how jealous u got when i talked and played around with other guys?
remember how much you cried when i rejected you more than once?
remember how u said sorry to me cos you lost your temper cos you were jealous?
remember how sweet both of us were even though we were not in an open relationship?
remember how you tried not to smoke because i told you not to?
remember how you saved money because i influenced you to?
remember all those sweet goodnight msgs i saved but now it's gone cos my phone spoilt?
i wonder if you still save them..
remember all those happy moments we had when talking on the phone late at night?

do you remember all those nice memories?
i dont want to keep thinking about the past, i want all these to happen again in future.
my future has you in it, you hear me? i want you in my life.
because i love you, and no one can ever replace you.

even if you dont accept me, i wont accept others.
not anymore. because there's only 1 you in the world
and i love you for who you are.

please try to get your feelings back... i'm the only one believing in you...