today was really the longest day ever.
somehow, some time, some day i forgot that we broke up.
and for the entire time we went out i held him, i held his hand, i leaned on his shoulder.
and at the end of the day i got reminded that we already broke up.
i cried for so long and so terribly, realising that we were just friends.
i'm sorry for spoiling the day, but i just couldnt take it.
up till now, your feelings aint back.. i'm afraid of the end of the year.. really i dont want it to happen.
can the world end this december? at least i die without knowing the answer.
ellyne, why am i being so negative? there's still a possibility.
i cant give up yet, i cant be crying all day. i must think of ways to get him back.
even if next year your feelings aint back, i'm still gonna try and not give up.
cos i promised myself that i will try till the very end until one day, i really cannot take it and break away from this ordeal.
i cant say "baby" or "bbw" anymore. but hey best friend, i hope you'll read my blog. Just wanna let you know, i still love you sooooo much <3
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