Vulnerable.

Hey guysssss. 

Sorry I MIA-ed when I was supposed to blog on Wednesday and it's already the end of Saturday :(

I'm home and safely in Singapore but things have been really bad.

I guess this is one of the few spaces where I can open up and be as vulnerable as I can and it's a really personal post that I'm sharing with you guys. Whether you read it or not doesn't matter but I hope you respect what I've got to say :)

Hubz and I have been quarreling since a week ago (or even more) and things have been really crazy even as I touched down in Singapore. 

I've also been sick (never ever recovered from my cough 3-4 weeks ago) and am having a fever + all kinds of sickness you can think of.

So I'm all cooped up at home most of the time either being sad or being sick.. yeap that's about it lol.

Things may end between Hubz and I and I'm really so down I'm too speechless. & I'm sorry if I'm not talking to many people or initiating chats because I'm too stoned to even act happy and be alright.

Yah I know right super emo nemo ._.

We've had yet to really talk things out or even really have a nice chat about everything but no matter what happens I'll definitely try to stay strong for as long as I can.

I don't really want to say everything in detail because of Hubz's privacy but it's just mainly my fault.

Whoever knows me for at least 3 months would know I'm crazy, loud, and a big big bully.

I guess I hurt him too much and sometimes things are just too late and all I feel is guilt,

but of course my one and only wish for Christmas and my Birthday is to continue and begin new things with him and talk things out.

Not getting my hopes too high as I guess he's too hurt but oh wells....

Well that's about it! I'll try to pick myself back up as soon as I can and start blogging about my Malaysia trip! :)

Don't miss meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.