Expectations.

Hi. So here's my current favourite photo of me looking and being happy. But I lost happiness.

My project has finally ended but I still don't have effects of accomplishment, maybe because I've been too tired since last night. I've been taking naps and snoozes for my entire Saturday.
Will definitely blog about it soon, but right now I'm thinking of expectations.



I used to have loads of expectations of many people but then I realized that high expectations = high disappointment. maybe that's why my results dropped O.O
right now, I always try my best to not set any or low ones, life's been good. (& so much happier)

But sometimes, some things feels like in-born. When you have an expectation like "When I grow up, I must have my own study room" or something. It's something or a dream since young that you won't want to change.... do you have those "expectations"?

To me, expectations are normally due to the people around you as you grow old. Our upbringing defines who we are, how we behave and what we want now and in the future. It's something like being judgmental due to your upbringing, no?

& sometimes, it just hurts so much when you meet someone so precious but makes you feel so evil at the same time. Due to "expectations", I lost happiness.



Does it ever happen to you? When you just feel like you're such a villain because of your upbringing. There's no one to blame, but only to blame yourself for meeting that one person. and how that one person affects the expectations that you have and believe in since young.

Sighpie I guess no one even understands really what I'm saying, neither do I LOL. But if you understand, share with me so I won't feel so lonely, please? :)