Randoms.

Today was a stay-home day but the most productive day ever since exams started.

I STUDIED. 

I really did. I got so stressed and I did like 5-6 math worksheets & I'm so drained out right now.

My posts have been quite boring lately but pardon me okay? I've been so unstable and busy ><

I promise for more awesomeness after my exams are over! ^^

Two photo-shopped photos from my brother.
It was on the 7th Day of Chinese New Year if I'm not wrong :)

Old photo of us! Super unglam lah can. but I miss those times! I remember I was really happy at that time when taking photos, forgot why though.

Yesterday was the second night crying again, but things are changing I guess? I'm much better today despite an unknown backache and unknown pain behind my neck :(
Tomorrow would be another mugging day, so on and so forth. I can't wait for exams to be over!

Most updated photo of me few minutes ago. I haven't been cam-whoring! Sad... sad...

E says byebye!

Untitled.

I've always wondered what would happen if one day you've finally found another girl. What would happen to me; our memories and you.

But I never thought what would happen if one day I've finally found another guy.

Things are so sudden, that I didn't realize only till now. That one day; when I woke up, I wasn't thinking of you. And when I'm in the bus on the way to school, I wasn't thinking of you either. When I go to sleep; Bubu didn't seem as important anymore.

I'm too shocked, and I don't know if this is a good thing. I told myself I would hold on to you. What's happening to me? I told myself that I wanted another chance to create even more happy memories with you; but suddenly my heart just stopped. 

Things are so crazy, I don't know what my heart and what my mind wants. I wish I could go for a break far far away; and to decide who and what I really want.

I'm trying to brainwash myself, to recall back our memories; to recall how much I wanted you on the start of January. But will it hurt even more?

It seems like every decision I do will still hurt. Whose there to save me? Whose there to make me smile again?

I need to control. Control my thoughts about you and him. 

But controlling seems to be my biggest enemy.

Maybe avoiding everything would just be the best. 

Holidays are coming soon, I shall go anywhere I want alone and have a nice break. Visit the places we both went before, and then visit the places he and I have visited before. 

Then I'll be hurt, I'll feel numb, I'll decide. But what if I can't decide? Will time give me an answer?

I miss you both, dearly.

Marina Barrage with Mr K.

As embarrassing at it sounds. It's only the second time I visited Marina Barrage. and for those who don't know me well enough; I love places with nature and I've always wanted to go to the latter again.

The first time was with my family and my parents weren't as amazed as me ._.

After like half hour or so they decided to leave. 

JUST LIKE THAT?! 

I was so friggin impressed by the view & everything around.

FINALLY. I had the chance yesterday.

Not many photos but I really enjoyed my time there with Mr.Kental :)

Mr.Kental shall be named unknown, but he's someone memorable; too memorable.

 OOTD: Denim Outer-wear + Denim shorts.

ISN'T THIS PHOTO JUST SO AMAZING?! Taken by Mr.Kental with his phone. Forgot what type of photo was this, but who cares it's too awesome. hehe.

So many things happened yesterday when we went out & up till now I can't stop smiling due to this.
I wonder if you felt as happy as I was. but then today; things just messed up.

I realized I messed up my own heart, and I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. Hais.
I've always wondered who would I go with on my second trip to Marina Barrage and I've never expected to go with Mr K. It felt like a dream. When will we go there again? I wanna relive the memories.....


E says byebye!