photo taken with justina iphone (: CNY day 1.
i just realised i took most photos during day 1, the other days i not so nice :(

oh well thats not the point of todays blog post.
i'm super tired now and like thinking sooooo much.

it's so hard to even start but it's like there's this rock stopping my life in my heart.
it's like you can't forgive someone and you constantly hate that person despite that thing is already over.
and you want to forgive that person so much but the more you think of it the more you get angry.
you can be so angry that when u see that person, your entire view of that person has changed, your eyes would be full of anger,hatred and sometimes to me; death.
even though it might not be that persons entire fault, you just have something against that person.

sometimes you can even hate yourself for hating that person till you cry so much not knowing why you feel this way.

that person has been in my life since last year, and that person has to come into my life 3 times.
i dont get it, i dont get why i am so angry.
i even stalk that person on facebook and go mad without myself knowing.

and it's finally up till today that i finally blocked that person.

i'm doing this cos i hope time will heal my heart, my hatred.
i've never hated someone this much. it hurts to feel this way.

i really hope time will heal everything and that one day i can unblock that person with the rock gone in my heart.


i cant tell you how sorry i am, but really; i'm hurting myself too. i'm sorry.

ISN'T THIS PHOTO SO FUNNYYYYY LOL.
it's like from primary to secondary 4? ( graduated)

DON'T UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF PUBERTY :P

another updateeeeee.

i got my posting results~
went into Republic Poly, Interactive and Digital Media.

i got the text in the morning and clarie sent me hers, at first i was super blur.
but after reading so many times, i realised me and her got into the same course.
so i called her. LOL, this was how the conversation was.

Me: " hello? clarie uh"
Clarie: " zo mo?"
Me: " ni si liao, ni zhen de si liao"
Clarie: " zo mo leh?"
Me: " wo gen ni yi yang course"
Clarie: " FUUCCCCCKKKK YOUUUUUU"
Me: " HAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOLOLOL.

LOL. she is so gonna enjoy her 3 years of poly. HAHAHAHAH.

hmm today wasn't really a good day for me, i managed to survive this whole day rotting at home -.-
played audi like mad. I FOUND MY OLD ACC :D

going to RP tmr with clarie to see see and chat chat haha.

hope i'll be better tmr, i'm left with blocked/runny nose! fever is gone :D

byebye ^^

HAPPY CNY EVERYONE!
yes i know i didnt update. i am just plain lazy luh.
many things happened AGAIN since my last update, and it all ended well i guess.
it's something super private but i'm thankful that i have some people around who care for me (:
i've really learnt this lesson, and i swear never to do it again.

CNY was mad,mad,mad. then again i'm "pretty" or like "i've grown up", those asian gatherings and praises~~ NOT BEING BHB BUT
seriously lah, I'M NOT PRETTY! the photo above is just me with make up, no specs, dress and diff hairstyle. it's just a makeover and it's never the real me. i still prefer my old self <3

not sure if this is good or bad news but I'M SICK.
the irony is its cny and i'm sick but it's good news?
cos my dear boyfriend is in malaysia now! like right now.
he was sick and i prayed so hard that i could get the virus so he can enjoy his trip.
well i so called have it now and i hope baby is enjoying his holiday (:
wonder what is he doing now :O

bad thing about being sick now is............
baby is away, i'm supposed to rest at home and i'm gonna rot at home
THAT IS PURE TORTURE! and i've cried like few times alr cos i miss him loads :/
at least if i go out time will past faster.
sighhh. and i guess thats why i'm sitting here on the bed blogging?

counting till when baby comes back, gosh i'm so gonna squeeze hug him to death when i see him :/

feel like writing a song, maybe when i wake up from my sleep?

I CANT SLEEP NOW!

i miss you :(

old photo of me!
sup guys,
i'm so sorry i didn't blog for looooooong :(
lots of stuff happened but there's just 5 main points i wanna tell you all.

1) my birthday celebration was freaking awesome.
2) new year was freaking awesome.
3) i patched with my lovely baby.
4) O level results got a 25, I DIDNT FAIL.
5) i can play audi now and made a new acc.

and i guess because of all those i dont have time to update.
it's like a super crazy december to january.
i know sometimes i rot at home but i just dont want to update.

i'm lazy lah ok :(

i will blog once a week at least ok? hehe

kkthxbye.